Why I am the Way I am

Have you ever felt like everything was just in your head?

Have you felt so invisible even when people are looking straight at you?

Have you ever felt so alone even when you are in a crowded room full of people?

Have you ever fallen so hard for someone that it physically pained you to get back up on two feet?

Have you ever looked in the mirror and was so revolted by what you saw that you wished you were blind?

Because if you have then YOU would understand why I am the way I am.